Feels like there's a gaping hole - and there is: in my heart (SOB).
big big hug to you - you and i need to fill that hole with other things, for now.
Phew, I do have a tendency to wallow at every possible opportunity!
we are the wallowing queens, aren't we -
tonight, my mom read me this quote:
'pain is inevitable in life, suffering is a choice'
talk about give it to me straight - i really need to stop being the victim here. all my db'ing efforts have been in vain, i realize now - because i allow myself to suffer - h can feel that . i need to stop suffering and get a life!! and so do you, right?
your gal stuff with the kids sounds great - i need to make more effort in that dept. once again - i gal'd like crazy the first few months, and then slacked off -
you have a dog? what kind? i have had this incredible urge to get a dog for the last few months - i've hesitated mainly because of the vet bills - can't afford anything right now. but you know, i just might be brave and get a puppy with s this spring - heck, it would be so lovely to have company when i am on my own and i know that s would get really soothed cuddling and playing with the dog.
mixed feelings though - s has asthma, and its a wild toss, whether he will or will not react to any specific dog.
you're right about mil's. what do they know...
take care zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
