Golf Mom its ok to want your family back. Its been three yrs. and I miss my family. I dont know if I miss my xh but I know I miss my family. I just wish we all could get along. Kimmerz is right, you will love him, miss him and your family being together. You will be so angry at him and NOT want him back. Just take it one day at a time. Thats all any of us are promised anyway. Rely on GOD....he will comfort you. As much as my divorce hurt me and still does, it was the worst best thing that has ever happened to me.