Not sure where to start, Part 2

[wishing, hoping]

So tonight is D's soccer game. First of the season. I rush home from work, let the dog out, change clothes, grab a snack for D, grab her water bottle and backpack and head out the door to pick her up from daycare. I get her into her uniform, packed in the car and still have 15 minutes to kill before her practice starts. At the field H shows up and asks me why I didnt meet him at the house. I told him I didn't know we were meeting then. He said he just assumed I would be there. He told me he went ahead and put away some laundry and stuff before he came out. I thanked him for doing that but deep down I knew he was packing to leave again and that was why. During the game I got cold and he offered me his coat. He got it from the car and even helped me put it on. He has not done that since we were dating!

After the game we went home and ate pizza. I knew he was leaving because he didnt grab a beer. We had smalltalk for a while then he told me he was going up north. D immediately got upset and wanted to go with dad. He told her maybe next time (yeah right). I wanted to say can't you just leave in the morning? But I didn't. No pressure from me. D was another story. She was clingy and crying. I didn't intervene. Not my job. After he left she was upset but I held her and rocked her. I couldn't help but cry a bit myself.

He called about 15 minutes later and asked if she was ok. I told him she was okay. He told me he would call in the morning and then asked me if I needed anything. I didnt know what he could possibly mean. He told me he meant like for the car or anything. I told him I would be fine.

I just don't understand. He is running so fast and so furious. It is so sad really.