I know it sounds as though I am being ungrateful, and frankly I'm hurt and disappointed. I'm tired of feeling hurt and disappointed in a relationship that actually doesn't exist - or, it exists whenever he feels he wants it to exist. The whole thing makes me wonder what I'm doing - in a rhetorical sense.
And, you all need to know my H sends EVERYONE flowers. It's his thing. Someone has a baby, they get flowers, someone's grandmother dies, they get flowers, someone has him over for dinner, they get a basic thank you bunch of flowers. I do the same but I send Thank You e-cards/cards. So, FOR HIM it's not exactly 'out of his way.'
I am sorry that other DBers don't get that...but if their H doesn't normally do those things, they won't do it naturally and so they wouldn't get whatever it is their H does as a bog standard action. For my H, it's about being polite more than it is about being loving.
Like I said earlier, I do feel that he made an extra effort - but let's be clear that he made that extra effort because the delivery people totally screwed up.
I do love him deeply - otherwise I would not have been working so hard for so long. After 2 years of this back and forth though, I think I deserve to be a bit disappointed and tell him about it. It clearly isn't going to make a difference anyway!
I don't know Bill. You are right. I'm not sure I want to put myself through it all over again - for how many years longer.... I do have some thinking to do.
It doesn't have much to do with the 'friend'. I'm not so young (anymore) nor naive to think this other person is the answer to all my prayers. HARDLY!
BTW - I did text my H to let him know I appreciate all the effort he made today, and to remind him that these flower delivery people aren't always reliable, so it wasn't his fault. The flowers must have been sitting in the van overnight - hence looking rather limp and sad, so it wasn't his fault. I reminded him of the time that I sent him flowers and they also arrived in a pretty sorry state - and he too was disappointed, and that it happens to the best of us. It has happened to my mother too - several times. So, I told him not to lose sleep over it. He appreciated it, and we had a laugh in the end.
