the path is the goal...

[zig]

The only thing I can do with that info is live my life in the way I want, regardless of THOSE details that DO NOT have to affect me...

yes i have realized that in my mind - and now have to in my heart too. i have to find myself again as i move forward

You weren't necessarily in LRT prior to this "house" bomb... but it may be something to consider for you, as you protect yourself through this and find your ground and centre again... and figure out what you want, fix your own problems, and move forward..

yes - as soon as i read your words- it was the right thing, i realized.

i'm not sure how to do it - do i say something to h to let him know? just yesterday we were talking about it and i said i wanted s to have good memories of us doing fun stuff together - and now today i realize i can't do that anymore.

maybe later i can put my thoughts down of what i would say to him, and you guys could help me with it?

thanks for all your support- i feel a bit broken right now - but underneath that i realize that i can do this and have no doubt about it

zig