Thank you for the replies. I know you all are right, but I can't help but feel that it's all my fault. If only I had worked.... H is blaming me for all of our financial shortcomings. I think he will go to his grave feeling that whatever he didn't accomplish in life was because of me. We made a decision that I would stay home. Yes, there came a point when money was tight and I should have gone back to work, however, he wasn't pushing me or telling me how he was feeling about it. He just let it fester. In the meantime, I did a great job of raising the boys, caring for H and our home and I was an excellent household manager. Why in his mind does that not count for anything. Oh, and let me add, that I was loyal and faithful, something that he use to brag about. But he's forgotten about that. Now I'm just this horrible person who he can no longer love. That hurts.
