i feel kind of sick to my stomach right now - calm but that nevertheless.
there's a pattern and i saw it a few months ago, and then it stopped and now it's started again
h is really nice - friendly really great and seemingly connecting - right before he pulls something on me
in the first weeks, we'd sleep together (happened 3 times) and then the next day he'd give me a little bomb
Hi Zig, Just wanted to say that this is EXACTLY what I've been experiencing too.
I used to think of H's moments of niceness as a sign that my changes were having some effect on our dynamic, but recently, I've come to doubt it.
I feel so played. Half crazy; not wanting to trust my own feelings any more.
The one thing H does do that gives me some hope that he might actually be looking within himself is that he apologises from time to time for what he is doing to me. I'm probably kidding myself that this has any significance at all.
