Had a great Easter weekend. Went skiing on Saturday ... bruised from falling, but it was FUN. For some strange reason, H has been quite pleasant, and talkative. Still not sure what his game is, but I doubt I will change my mind.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
I got all bruised up from mowing the lawn. Must hav e been a bruising kinda weekend. I wish I could have gone skiing! I haven't been in years and with my new thinner athletic self, I bet I would have fun!
Have you been reading about Operation Feral Cat? Just keep it up with your H. You might now want to keep him, but at least he is being pleasant!
Aloha!
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
Hi Wendy. It's not me that doesn't want the M ... it's my H. I asked him for another try last year, and he said no. I won't ask again. Yet, he comes home, takes me out to movies and dinners/breakfasts, keeps in contact while away, etc. I don't know what to make of him. I have detached enough not to really worry too much, but I do wonder sometimes. I intend to get a SA put in place during the summer, before I start uni in the fall. He may change his attitude toward me then.
You would have fun skiing ... I am still overweight (need to lose about 50lbs), yet enjoyed it a lot.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Being Me, the reason he does what he does is to suck you back in. He knows how far to push before he pushes you over, on the other hand, I think you are going to have to find a way to make the best of things, as I really don't think you intend to separate. I'm not putting you down in saying that, I just have a feeling you won't. If that's the case, you need to find a way to be happy in the situation.
Just got down on myself ... ugh! The darned dog just bit me for picking him up to put him in his kennel. I feel like that's my life ... even the dog hates me. But, I know I'm just being silly. The dog, of course, listens to my H instantly and he's hardly ever here. I'm the one that feeds him, takes him out sometimes, pets him.
I'll be better tomorrow.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Thanks for your support on my thread. Sometimes I feel so all alone. And our dogs are biting us, lawn mowes fighing us. Darn, I'm writing a poem!
I have completely stalled on my diet/weight loss. You spoke of that, too. I am going to get back on my plan this week. The one I lost the first 77 pounds with. I gained back 7 now, and it is making me mad.
What was the best thing you did when losing weight? For me it was tracking calories and planning exercise. If I lost 50 more pounds I would be back at my what I weighed when I got married weight..... Anyway need a diet buddy? I have always done diets on my own, but this website has taught me that we help each other more than I ever knew was possible!
Aloha,
Wendy
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
Hi Wendy! Yeah, I have been picking up again. I counted calories and exercised, but I was away so fell through on that. I must get back to that.
I would love a diet buddy. I was asking my D19 just now, if she would go with me to Weight Watchers. I don't normally like going to an organized program (and not by myself), but I think I need help. I also need to lose at least 67lbs to get to my wedding day figure. But, I'd be happy with 50lbs. Sigh! Need to start exercising again. I feel so much happier when I'm fit, and lighter.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
It was about me being worried about H's wellbeing. He has actually told me that he feels like he's falling apart with all the traveling and the many projects at the same time. (He's had several fainting spells on the airplane, and another this time too, even though he's in the comfortable business class.) He does work really hard. He's also hinted that he would like to spend more time at home, that he misses the kids. Not me, of course. Still, in the end, this job he has is his choice.
I am still going with the flow. Still planning on the SA this summer. Just want to get past my yearly MRI and oncology appointment in June. Other than that, I'm at peace with the way things are now.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
He's had several fainting spells on the airplane, and another this time too, even though he's in the comfortable business class
Ummmm....fainting spells??? That's NOT normal. Especially for a guy his age. WHy is he fainting? He needs a thorough physical. COuld be heart trouble, anemia, something else - but it's a very serious sign and needs to be worked up!
