New Day Rising

[greatwhitenorth]

Thanks for your concern, Snodderly. I'm trying to stay positive and put a plan in place. There's a college close by so you're right...I can get a roommate if need be. A couple of students there board their horses just down the road so it's something that could work out. I've lived on my own (apart from the 3.5 years with H) for 12 years so it would be an adjustment to live with a roommate again, but ya gotta do what ya gotta do, as they say.

I finally heard from H this evening about picking up "a few more things". I laughed out loud when he proposed Saturday night! Seriously! Um, I have plans buddy, sorry. I'm only going to my cousin's to catch up, but he doesn't have to know that. He also suggested Sunday afternoon, which might work if he's quick but I have plans then too. Gotta love being busy!

It's funny...he's always said I need to let him know by Monday about a weekend pick up. I guess he thinks I'm sitting home staring at the walls, although I've told him I'm seldom home on the weekends. At least he's polite and not mean.

Part of me wishes I knew if the homewrecker was still in the picture. I'm not asking him, that's for sure. H's daughter told me a couple of months ago that he's not seeing her anymore, but I wasn't going to have that conversation with her at all or with him unless he brought up our marriage. At the moment, though, if I knew one way or the other it would probably hurt my focus and destabilize me. And it's also possible he's taken up with someone else.

Whatever....it's out of my head as quickly as it pops in. I have much bigger things to think about these days.