Rick - I'm glad you are coming out the other end of this crap. You sound almost like a butterfly coming out of it's chrysalis. You've been bound up in your cocoon for a long time and now you are learning to spread your wings and fly.
Good for you. Enjoy the ride!
T2 - I was driving down the road today and saw my W although she didn't see me. I could see the vestiges of the girl inside struggling to get out and I remembered how beautiful she really is (you know, Molly Ringwald in her prime). I just noticed it but there was no emotional pain whatsoever for me, no feeling of whoa is me, etc. I can see her at a glance and pretty much know what she's feeling, that is of course since discovering I had horse blinders on and then taking them off. The struggle is so evident to me. Its hard to see it happen.