Not sure where to start, Part 2

[wishing, hoping]

Yes, Leni is my DB coach. She told me to tell him that I don't think divorce is the answer but I am willing to let you go if that is what you want.

I don't want to convey the message that I am trying to hang on to him, but that I want what is best for him and for me as well. I was looking at him last night while he was sleeping and I almost felt sorry for him. But I am not his mother. I cannot protect him.

Honestly the more I dig, the more skeletons I find. This lies much, much deeper than I ever expected. In some ways I think it would be better for me to just call it a day and move on. This dysfunction lies deep and is not going away. I have to protect myself and my kids from getting too wounded from the flying schrapnel.