OT - Thank you, thank you, thank you. The more I processed through this in the last 24 hours, the more I came to those same conclusions. My life is only about ME. I am the only one that can save me and make me happy (yes, I knew that already but actually focusing on that as a goal has been a struggle) and regardless of what happens and Gabe's attitude toward it, this has to be my focus.
You pointed out that this is a breakthrough. I'm so happy you see it that way because it upset me so much that I was afraid it really meant I was backpeddaling into my old self and that JUST CAN'T HAPPEN! I won't let it. Whew! I'm taking this eye opening experience as the push to do better for myself.
I'm sitting at my desk reading through what you all wrote and I'm crying (hiding it as much as I can from my coworkers). I read your experiences and it makes me so sad for all of us. We all have had such unhealthy experiences but we continue to grow through them. Thank God! I would hate to see what happens to those who don't.
Hugs and blessings to you all! Time to get back to some fun now! All these deep conversations exhaust me! LOL
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
