I agree with you Starsky, he is a very wise, kind man. I know he cares because he doesn't need my chart in front of him to remember or ask. When I take the boys in, he is always asking how I am doing. It is nice.

So we talked to the boys last night. It was difficult but I think overall it went well. H asked me to start and wasn't jumping in, so I looked at him and he jumped in too.

He got very emotional and slightly dramatic, and I was worried it would make it harder on the boys. They don't have any patience for drama

After talking a bit, we asked them if they wanted to say anything or if they had questions. They didn't. They said that they aren't surprised because they have heard us. I explained "and that is exactly why we ALL need this break". They nodded.

H continued and I suggested that everything was said and it was now repeating, and we should let them process. He agreed.

I felt a huge sense of relief and went to relax. H came in and rubbed my shoulder and said "are you ok". I told him that I am fine. I think he wanted to talk about how he is feeling but I just didn't have it in me.

We are finalizing financial aid for S17 and taxes this week, he moves out tomorrow. I have the boys this weekend.

I am feeling incredibly good today. I have plans to do some spring cleaning and buying a new mattress and bedding this weekend. The mattress is old and sinks in the middle. It is just time. Really looking forward to the weekend.


-Autumn