Hate this ride for you. But you are doing good! Its only natural to be scared, don't get down on yourself for it. And as far as separating "hope" from "expectations", that is just HARD STUFF. I struggle with that every day.
Can you believe and hope that YOU will be OK? This weekend can be good for you, even if your H doesn't open his heart to the opportunities it may offer.
I hope good things for you & your kids and I hope your H can be part of that. If not, you will still have those good things. There will be sadness, and mourning because it could (and I said "could") be a major loss in your life. OR it could be a turning point to healing.
Either way, you will make it and prosper. The hard part is the the option where your marriage heals is the one you can better visualize mentally because you've been there already. The other path is uncharted and unknown so its harder to see and believe what that "good" will look like. But it can be just as good or better! You're making progress to the "other side" regardless!
Me:45, W:45 S:16 D:13 M:22, T:25 Bomb: July 2010 Putting finances in order for "D" Continue to live in same home-separate rooms
