If the woman were gone, your H still wouldn't be going back to you. Or at least he will for the short term until something else comes around. There's something broken inside of him so as hard as it is, you can't beat yourself up over that.
Are you still living with your mom? If so, I would suggest moving back home and reclaim your home. In ever interaction, show him what he'd be missing. And I'm not talking about the compassionate you, I mean the you that got his fires burning in the first place. Men are fairly simple creatures. Once he sees that you've moved on, he'll start rethinking things.
Keep getting stronger and just keep remembering that you are the one who is worth it.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
