Well D Money, Your timing is perfect! I was just sitting here wondering how people get through this crap!
I'm pretty sure my success won't be defined by a restored marriage. My success will be defined by me not going crazy!
I'm glad you got through all this, grew and all.
I'll look for your old threads.
Getting through this is different for everyone. For me I came to a place of acceptance. As I began to "grow up" and mature I began to realize that some things that I accepted in my previous relationship just weren't acceptable to me anymore. Once you get to a place that you realize you don't need this person in your life to survive or be happy, it's very liberating.
I've dealt with other things in addition to what I went through with my XW that helped put things in perspective. I was wasting too much emotion and energy worrying about what my XW was doing instead of living life.
I live a modest lifestyle. I don't make a lot of money, but I'm truly happy with my life and who I am.
I left the board when I did because I felt that I was "stuck". I just needed to withdraw into myself for awhile and heal.