So I had an appointment with my physician this morning. He was treating me with AD and knew a little about my sitch. My entire family has been going to him for a LONG time.
So this morning he asked how things are going and an update, so I told him that we were telling the boys tonight and separating on Friday.
He referred me to an IC that can help me more and really sat and listened to me. He is a fatherly type, I really like him.
When I explained the sitch and the deal breakers that were broken, he said that H was exhibiting signs of depression for sure and suspected bipolar which was surprising but I guess not totally out there.
He said it sounds like he is hitting rock bottom or at least close, and I said "I sure hope he doesn't go any lower than this" Self medicating with alcohol and substances is not ok. He said he doesn't want a dr tossing AD's at him but yet he is still self medicating, he can't see it.
He agreed that I am doing the right thing by asking him to move out temporarily and asked me to keep the boys safe at all times, which of course I will.
He asked me if I plan to reconcile, counsel, or divorce. I said that I am taking it day by day, working on me and the boys and not thinking that far. He said that sounds like a good plan and wants to see me again in a month.
I feel like he is one more extension to my support system.
I had to take the kids in this afternoon, they both have upper respiratory infections, and he said "you seem good" It is when I am with the kids, they make me laugh and really keep my spirits up.
I've never allowed myself to be open to support and I am so glad that I am over that now, It is not weak to need support. We all do from time to time
