Well ... I'm back

[tpc1977]

One thing I noticed today ... something I'm suffering and just now noticed. Usually I notice things right off the bat. I'm pretty keen on changes in my body and such.

But, I'm having heart palpitations. Which I believe are stress related. I've really been holding a lot of things in, trying to look and act calm and "with it." Inside, though, I'm a mess.

I need to relax and deal with this a bit more productively. There are times when I look at my situation and shrug it off. The day goes by and I'm just fine. Other times, like now, I live with the fear up front and in my face. I don't show it, but it's there. For some time now it's been heavy.

I need the "screw it" attitude back. I want to shrug it all off and go on with my life as if none of this is going on. This past week has been difficult.

I did receive an email from a local Al-Anon rep telling me that the meetings here are still on, once a week at 12pm. If I get the nerve I'm going to go next week.