Journaling...going to be a lot of that today, as I need to get all of this out (and not say it to my H) so just roll with me...
I was feeling so good until I went to dinner with my friends the other night. Since then, I haven't been able to get OW or Rodney's A out of my head. Which is part of the reason for the conversation last night.
I also think it's strange that no one knows that my H is having an A. He has not told a soul according to him. Even his best friend doesn't know. Which doesn't make sense because the friend actually knows this person I think. I told him if anybody looked at their Twitter accounts, they'd figure it out like I did. He disagreed. There's a reason he hasn't made it public. I just don't know what that reason is.
This morning: So...I get ready to leave the house for work after I pulled myself together. I tell H that I appreciate him being honest last night and telling me how he is feeling. I just had to get that out. Now I'll shut up. I promise!
Last night I told him that I feel like sometimes when he looks at me ...he's wishing OW was here instead of me. After I thanked him for the honestly last night, he says that no matter what is going on, he doesn't want me to think he wishes someone else was here besides me because that is never the case.
Then he asks me if I have cash because he forgot to ask me if I have cash for the week. Now first of all he RARELY asks me this. Most of the time, I'm asking him. LOL Anyway, he just wanted to make sure I had cash in case I needed some. He only had a $1 anyway so that didn't help. LOL
And I got a compliment on my shirt which is sort of new, and he hadn't seen me wearing it.
WHAT THE H&LL? Is he trying to make me crazy so he can send me off somewhere? LOL I really think my M might send me off the deep end.
