Still on the rollercoaster...HANDS UP!

[hopingandpraying]

I feel as if that is what my H wants me to do "give the final shove over the cliff." I did talk to a lawyer the other day, just to get information and make sure we're doing things correctly, but I did not file. I figured if this is truly what he wants, then get the papers and file. He did bring papers over the other day to file civally, but did not bring them in because I said I wasn't doing it that way. The only reason he brought the papers over was because I did say "It was over!" on the phone because I found out more sneaky information about his affair...it was out of anger! (Bad move!)

So now, I'm trying to get back on track and giving myself a timeline.