Talked to H this morning. I guess all this work has been for nothing. He now says he doesn't have the same feelings for me anymore & he doesn't want a life w/ me. Not quite sure how that all changed in less than a week - the last few weeks he has been telling me that he loves me & he knew we would never get divorced & he wanted to be home w/ me & he wants to try to have a baby, etc, etc.

I wish I wouldn't have got my hopes up, but I guess it is kind of hard when he is telling me that stuff...

I don't know what to do - we were so close Now he says he doesn't even want to talk or see me. Says his kids are most important thing (altho he didn't even know about them when we met & got married) & I wouldn't be able to accept that. I told him I knew things would be different this time since they would be part of our lives now too.

Was just at my med review. My dr said it sounds like he doesn't know how to balance having more than one relationship at a time. It's me or the kids. He has been like this about friends & family since I have known him. When he is w/ me it is just me. When he is w/ friends or kids, they are priority. I almost think he tries to convince himself that he doesn't love me so it makes his life easier in this respect. That's also why it worries me not to interact w/ him - he gets wrapped up in whoever he is with & "forgets" me.

Time to give up or keep DRing? I really need some help today. I hope someone can relate...

Thanks,

slt