Journalling...

I am feeling really down... Last week I met with my priest. It is a procedure that we have to follow regarding D, our church tries to see if there is any chance we can R. Our priest told me that by the way I was speaking about my H he understood that I still love him. I got very emotional on this. He then told me that he will try to speak to my H. He also told me that they had arranged a meeting, but H didn't show up and that when he tried to call him, my H didn;t answer the phone. Very strange behaviour, my H was always repsectful of our church (but not very close)... It is like he is a totally different person... Then H's L called the priest and told him that since H is determined to D, he cannot see any reason for this meeting. I am very disappointed. I was crying all the way back home... I didn't expect such a reaction from H...

Last week was H's birthday. I managed not to contact him (thanks guys for helping me with that).

I have been reading other sitches and I can see that mine is so messed up, that I cannot see any way out, except D... I am very disappointed. Thanks to all of you that are reading my sitch, I really appreciate it... Thanks for all the advice and your input...


Me: BW 30
Him: WH 31
T 12 years, M 3.5
No kids
OW 27 single ex co-worker

Bomb: 13/07/2011
S: 13/07/2011 - 16/09/2011
H came Home 16/09/2011
Dday: 01/10/2011
H left again 23/11/2011

Separated since...