Oh and I have read the DB book and am starting on her other. I just need to learn when crap happens, he is no longer the person I can turn to. For now, he is no one. Repeat to self...he is no longer in your life. Real 180 for me will be complete no contact. I am a classic pursurer. Finding it very hard to break that pattern. Back to Day 1. Hoping tomorrow the sun will come out and I can breathe again.
