Not sure how to deal with some things - Spent some time w/ H yesterday. Things were okay but he made a comment that i'm not sure how to handle. He said that he thinks I have an ulterior motive when I do things for him, gave him a birthday gift etc. I do the things because I want to but of course I know deep down that I am trying to prove to him how much he needs me, would miss me, etc. I didn't tell him that but now I don't know what to do. He says he thinks sometimes I am just trying to win him back. Well, I am but I guess I need to be less obvious?
I can't figure out what his LL is, guess I need to read thru that book again. Should I just stop doing things for him all together, or just if he asks? I tend to "volunteer" for things even if he doesn't ask, probably because he doesn't ask for help or anything very often. If he does ask & I say no, he will sometimes get irritated or mad.
I actually felt quite angry towards him yesterday & fed up. I felt like it was a breakthrough finally & I would be able to detach better, but today I feel lonely, sad & miss him alot.
