Here's the good news, Nemo, there are good days and bad days and really sucky days.
The secret to success is: Get up every day, keep the focus on you, keep doing the next right thing and eventually, the good days outweigh the bad days and the sucky days are very few and far between.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss