I think I have been using LRT since she left. What else do I have left? The only 180 I have is the ultimatum. And that means divorcing her. But I dont know if im prepared for that yet. Thats maybe exactly want she wants me to do. Then she can say,"Well he divorced me, I wanted it to work." Thusly saving face.
I wonder sometimes if I'll ever know the whole story. Will I ever stop this merry-go- round? Has far has GAL, once corn and soybeans start that will be my life. I have rented a lake place for the summer. Ive always felt at peace there. Of course that was before all of this. W and I always got along best at the lake. Away from jobs and other distractions. Without her there will it be the same? I doubt very much that it will be.
