Thanks JS, Youre so right about time in the tractor. I was in one all day and all you do is think and in my case overthink. Today I was angry. I wanted to go talk to Possible OM.He was a good friend once. We talked about each others marriage problems at the lake. I trusted him. He probably used what I told him against me. He took advantage of this with my wife. I wanted to ask him what right did he have to contact my wife. She is married and so was he at the time. If wife and I reconcile this issue between those two is going to have to be addressed.
I also wanted to talk to my wife. Why is she so cruel. Is she doing it to torture me. I know I hurt her but Im sorry. I have been very remorseful. I have made possitive changes in my life. I will never treat her that way again. Why will she show no mercy. I just want to be safe and secure with her again. I want to go back to the days when I had no doubts, fears, or suspicions. Will I ever have that peace again.
"Over-thinking ruins you. Ruins the situation, twist things around, makes you worry and just makes everything much worse than it actually is."
I got to get out of that tractor and take a walk now and than.
