Nothing much different over here. H seems to be a little more back to normal (as much as he can be I guess). With his knee problems and my back problems the past week, its been kind of quiet. We've both been helpful if the other has needed something. I've been trying not to go into "fixer" mode, but it hasn't been easy. I hate to see people I love in pain. But I have been working hard at not taking over. H was looking for a dr to go to about his knee, and I was trying to help him so I gave him our insurance info. Later I asked him if he'd found anything. He said it wasn't working for him and asks me wasn't I looking. I told him I gave him the info and stopped looking after that. He seemed surprised, but didn't respond.
He has still been staying up late at night, and basically hugging the edge of the bed when he does sleep. I'm trying not to take it personally, as I know he's fighting his own demons, and I can't control that.
Yesterday was the first holiday we didn't go to church together. I had a meltdown while he was still in bed before I left. He didn't really say anything when I told him why. He did tell me I looked nice. Some very wise people told me not to take it personally and that he is probably just feeling guilty and church is the last place he wants to be right now.
I managed to hold it together for the rest of the day, but barely. He made sure to tell me that he had done the dishes, laundry, and ran to the store while i was gone. We ended up in separate rooms lounging for the rest of be day. He did treat for dinner and we watched Game of Thrones together last night.
Some things I've noticed: -He has been making a point to tell me who he is on the phone with. -He called me "Baby" on the phone for the first time in months (1st time this year!) today. I'm almost positive it was a slip up LOL -He is planning on attending my sister's graduation & party next month.
He still hasn't mentioned moving out or us separating. Or anything about his A. I've been quiet as a church mouse about it, which is a 180++++ for me. Still, I'm not sure how long this limbo can last.
I'm sitting in Urgent Care waiting to be seen about my back, so I have no idea if anything I just typed makes sense. LOL
