Sure was a nice rocking chair..

[Cadet]

Perhaps this is the universe's way of telling me that my M was never meant to last in the first place.

NOPE - just part of your SCRIPT.
The part that you have NO CONTROL over.
You didn't ask for this, did not want it, have no choice, but must accept it.

You just keep on your path and play the cards as they are dealt.
Sorry they are not great cards, so do not bet too much on them.