Hey Rick, has to be hard to see your W in such a self-destruct mode for so long. The fact that she acknowledged the challenge in herself is good. No telling how long it will stay in this mode before trying to do something about it (if ever). But at least that she acknowledged it could be a positive step for her even if it is a very small one.
Hope your week goes well.
Thanks CES! I told her yesterday when we spoke that I can understand the words she is saying intellectually, however I can't even begin to know how she actually feels. I get what she is describing and it is territory that I am not living like her. The best i could do was to relate to her similar sitches that were traumatizing that we both experienced but for the fact that we are different people we chose to handle it all very differently. And she's too intimitated by me and other options to simply let go and try outside suggestions. At this point anyway, she's cracking under the stress of her fears keeping her bound tightly, and her knowledge that all the demons are bursting out of her.
Last night all of us, the boys and gf's went to S24 to watch GOT. I have always left the door open for her to rejoining the family and she can't handle that and you know that story. I know she was in our house after we left. The fact that it was Easter, that she didn't show to celebrate it with us, and that she was alone in the house couldn't have been easy on her despite what she says she is feeling right now. That just may be me projecting though. I've listened to her for years about this, and esp. the last year. If I had a gun to my head and was told I had to predict what is going to happen, I'm not seeing good things. If she can find someway to be content and have the relationship again with her kids then I'll be glad.
