How did you lose that 77 pounds? That's about how much weight I need to lose 70-80 pounds. I've really struggled with weight and it got worse after having kids. I actually lost alot of weight being pregnant, and would be much thinner than pre pregnancy weight after the baby was born.
I lost 23 pounds this past year due to stress and starvation due to no appetite. WEll now my appetite is back, and Im starting to gain it back. I need to start excercising...thinking I need to just turn my livingroom into a disco. Get a strobe light, turn on the music and the girls and I can just let it rip!
At any rate I wanted to tell everyone I downloaded the book No More Mr Nice Guy tonight, and boy has that really validated things! Couldn't describe Mr. Man-stbx any better!
I had discussed with Kaffe and T^2 just what his intentions could be. We then discussed how a man needs to know he's pleasing his woman. Now that I think about it..... I think he still is really trying to win my approval. Now why he's doing it, I have no idea. Figured I'd be chopped liver compared to a woman that worships him and gives him everything he wants, how he wants it and when he wants it. I have noticed that he finally seemed to start coming around and communicating better after I offered alot of praise and encouragment in the things he had been doing...and it was authentic. No manipulation or lies, I meant it.
So we'll see. Im working hard on Forgiving him. Carrying this resentment and anger is draining my soul and I don't want it anymore. But forgiving comes in stages and it takes time to actually feel it. After I read some of the No More Mr Nice guy, I felt a huge weight lift from me. It was finally sinking in just how warped poor Mr. Man's need for approval is. And I felt sorry for him! Every nasty behavior and reaction he's had towards me now makes sense as well.
The girls and i had a wonderful easter and a great easter dinner. I got to relax but enjoy the girls at the same time. Just hearing them play and laugh is music to my ears. All 3 of us survived this year and are going to be ok. I got my girls through this....now I think it's time for me to collapse!
