W informed me she is going to go look at two apartments tomorrow. They are both in gated comunities. One is available ASAP. The other is still under construction, and will be ready some time in May. They are both 30 minutes away from our/my current home. Which means 30 minutes away from daycare as well.
I met her with support. It suprised her. This led to her discussing some details of how she thought we could work out time with S, finances, and belongings.
I agreed with finances and belongings as her proposal was fair enough, and I don't have any belongings or money that I can't stand to lose.
Her proposal concerning S was skewed in her favor. She wanted me to have my time during the week, and her to have him Fri thru Mon.
I told her "thanks but no thanks, I will not be spending all of my time waking him up, and putting him to bed. I want weekend time too". She backed down, and we came up with something I can live with. It [censored]. But I can live with it.
So we are having a good Easter otherwise. S is enjoying himself, and W is cooking chicken and dressing. She knows it is my favorite thing she cooks. She made mention that when she cooks it at her new place she will invite me over.
I'm feeling sad, and relieved all at once.
The real pain will come when I have to look into S's eyes and see his sadness, hurt, and abandonment. Poor guy. He's tough, but very sensitive. I will be there for him as best I can. I can't take away that pain though. He will have to deal with that himself... Making me cry.
