WAW told me she doesn't want to be married pt3

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So weekly update. My son was off from school this past week for break. We had alot of time this week together. Monday I dropped both kids off at the sitters and my wife picked them up. Tuesday night they were with me. I also had them at the office with me on Wednesday and dropped them off at home that night. Well dropped them off with my neighbor since my wife was stuck in traffic and I had a 6pm therapy session.
I told my therapist what happened with the meeting as well as having a small chat with my father in law. My car needed a new alternator so I dropped it off to him Tuesday morning. When I picked the car up later in the afternoon he came outside to talk with me. He told me my mother in law had invited me over for dinner and I declined. I told him with everything going on right now I did not feel right. I also told him I feel like I let him and my MIL down Jen was my responsibility I asked for her hand in marriage and failed to protect and keep her safe. My therapist also said I still feel the failure aspect. My FIL looked at me and said I didn't fail anyone things change and she changed they still know I love her and my job now is taking care of my kids and getting my house for us. He said he doesn't know exactly what is going on and that my wife doesn't talk with him about it. I told him its not my place to inform him of things I know. He knows that she and I spoke that previous Sunday and I told him that I told her I still love her and would marry her again if we were to get divorced. Can I wait I don't know. All this was told to my therapist who is still amazed at me holding out hope. I told him when you love someone that's all you have.
I left two easter cards in my FIL truck for him to take home since I am not there today. First time in14 years I have had to find something to do today. Gym is not open and I can't go anyway. Ran a 2.62 mile race yesterday and then swam for my triathlon. Concentrating on that now is my priority as well as work, kids and home.
So today I went into work to clean my desk up now I am back at my moms with borrowed ps3 games to kill the time. I did text my wife and wished her, kids and everyone at her parents house a happy easter. She asked me how Passover was going. I told her same things as every year except this year I can't figure out how to keep count of my calories.

Just more rambling
Have a good holiday