The rollercoaster continues...The W seemed like the C might of hit a chord with her. she asked the other day when i was getting the kids W "have u ever thought about moving away from here" L "where to?" W" I dont know some small coastal town somewhere" i just replied "huh" and went to go help the kids get ready. then about 15min later i was in a different room and she comes in W " you never answered my question" L "what question was that?" W "about moving away" L "sure ive thought about moving away from this town" W" where would u go?" L "I dont know" I left it at that.
she has texted the last couple days not saying she misses the kids now. she says i miss you guys. Another positive is she went and saw a IC 2 days ago.Now all of this sounds kinda positive But the OM is still very much in the picture. She still spends the whole time i have my kids w OM and alot of the time she does have the kids.
I know they have the whole day tmrw planned w my kids from sunrise beach service, to brunch party, to dinner at her grandparents. So it just blows my mind that she will make suggestions of running away t another town tgether with me but continues on w the OM and brings him around our kids. If that was a legitimate option/wish for her wouldnt she end the R with Om and try to work on us? I feel i shouldnt respond to any of that stuff until she ends it with the OM.Is she just putting the feelers out to see if im still there? does this still fall under standard script?maybe cake eating? i try not to listen/expect much from that kind of talk but how can you not. dinner at her grandparents... really.. that one hurt. I found out from Grandpas happy easter mass email that talked about who was coming to eat dinner with them. pretty much list my family and take out my name and enter OM name. that stung. im sure he didnt realize he was sending me a copy.
Up until tday i was having a decent week. went to the gym a few times, went offshore fishing, went to a friends bbq. had some good times w my kids.needed to vent. happy easter.
