You're doing so well, you really are. You are still walking forward, not missing a beat and carrying on.
I know it's got to feel miserable, but you're still marching on. That's what I've been doing for a year.
I wanted to let you know that I too do pretty well up until I have to deal with stbx as well. What you're feeling is normal and expected. And yes all the hurt, anger, and resentment coming back is normal and I go through it too. Im really having a hard time of it this week. If I have a week where I have alot of contact with him, Im all out of sorts. Depending on what the contact is about and how much it is, it can take me 2 - 7 days to get back on track. And then...here he comes again. I've been working on forgiveness, but when I have to deal with him alot it's nothing but 2 steps forward 3 steps back.
The only way I know how to get to a place where I can really start to get a leg up on forgiveness is to have NC again. So I understand where you are in regards to wanting limited contact with him. Given Im experiencing the same thing, I think it's a good idea.
