Outside the Scope of This Report 4

[WenikiTiki]

So this is directed mostly at KML (Ellie). My random thread hopping got me to read a whole bunch of your threads. And Starting back at the beginning, I was so happy for you.

And it has taken me several days to plow through your posts. And I realized that there were a lot of themes we had in common. Like health issues, taking on huge projects to do something monumental with H, and so on. You climbed Mt. Whitney with your guy, I crossed the Pacific Ocean in a 36' catamaran with mine.

Anyway, I got sad and had to quit reading for now. But I'm up to 2010. You sound happy and together. I appreciate your posts to me.

Heck, everyone knows I appreciate all their posts. I ordered a book called Cut Loose. Because I need to get over, through, beyond this!

I had put a rubber band on my wrist to snap if I thought wistful thought about my H and my former imaginary great life. Ironically all it did was give me the giggles, because I decided I wasn't going to punish myself over him. I more wished I could snap him with it. (More giggles....)

Then I remembered he and I used to have EPIC rubberband ambush battles. We would shoot them for the cats to play with, and when I vacuumed I would put them in a bowl. Then we would go crazy shooting them at each other.

I'm going to keep all my good memories of him, and just let the nut job who lives in his body now go.

I hadn't heard a peep out of him all week. Got a text in the wee hours asking was someone going to pick him up at the airport. I almost responded "Who are you and how did you get this number?" but restrained myself.

Instead I texted back that S22 would pick him up. (Just like we discussed before he left....) I plan to be out at the movies when he gets home.

Hope he likes his new room.