Divorce....with a side of crazy...

[imthemom]

Barb..your ex is still with her 11 yrs later??? omg....that makes me sick!!
Mish...I hate that ...every time I leave the house im looking over my shoulder and it almost never fails, i run into them at least 8 out of 10 times that I leave the house. Since we all live (and her work is) in a 5 block radius of each other it happens more often then not...I thought him moving so close would be a good thing for our S15, that was before we found out that she worked 2 blocks from our house and right around the corner from his new place...convienent... He meets her in the parking lot of her work everyday on his way home, as soon as i figured that out i started avoiding that area like the plague.

and it never gets any easier ...everytime I see them I end up a basket case the rest of the day. Thankfully my son has only been with me one time that we ran into them. I wish I could move away from here!!

I was speaking to my mom last night (she lives out of state ) she always just loved my STBX and just cant believe what is happening. We are not really close and dont talk much about "personal stuff"...but she kept saying that she knows STBX is going to look around one day and regret all of this and show up on my door step...that just sent me into a whole night of thinking and wishing and wondering what happened. And at my Al Anon meeting this week we talked about how they (alcoholics) have so much guilt and shame and how they beat thereselves up so much we have to be gentle and have compassion for them. They are sick...I have a hard time with that when I see him kissing her in a parking lot for god and everyone to see, that doesnt look guilty or like he feels shame to me. Especially since he has 27 months sober and claims to be a better man. I guess lieing cheating and sneaken around are good traits to have now...
Just seems like a hard week...im sure its because of the anniversary comeing up...its so in my head right now. I feel like 18 yrs of my life has been a lie...