Im laying here thinking about why she turned so unloving and downright mean after she moved out. After the rumor bomb hit she was so upset, that I layed with her so she could sleep. We slept together for the next 2weeks. No sex though, I did mention it a couple of times. We havent ML since the middle of August. Sex is important to me, so you can imagine how I feel about that. I always wondered if she was having her needs met elsewhere. She has never been a real sexual person. We didnt have sex before we were married. I should have seen problems ahead. But i loved her and respected her. I knew once we were married it would okay. Maybe she was just being nice until she got what she wanted ie house,cars, other items in the settlement. Yes we sat down and divided stuff. She gave the list to the lawyer and im sure its in the papers. I wouldnt know as I havent looked at them. We were just getting along so well. Hugging and even kissing each other goodbye and goodnight. Then bam. She moves out and iceberg dead ahead!I just dont get her. Is there OM. Possibly, very possibly. Is she just doing this to hurt me back. Id like to think she isnt that type of person. She has changed since she took the admin.job. Even her own friends have noticed. You give a woman that kind of salary shes not going to put up with any BS from her H. Easier to walk away then to work on things. Often when I have these thoughts I wonder to myself, why do you want to be married to such a, no wait. I have never refurred to her as one and I not going to start. Sorry. Weve been together too long and I know how good of a W she can be.Especially with a good H. I have got to work hard and become him again. I cannot quit.
