I have to say that I've had a good last couple of days & that there seems to be absolutely no pressure or anxiety between me and my W.
Yesterday my W was very flirty prior to going out dancing & initiated ML last night when she got back. Then today my W invites me to go out for a walk on the beach with the kids, which was so much fun and we even held hands for a while & joked with the little guys together. Then this evening my wife makes Macaroni Cheese for dinner (Good Friday) & we all sat and ate as a family.
Without reading too much into this, I think there are some positive signs that my 180's are starting to pay off.
I just try to make the family time and time I have alone with my W as special as I can make it & I really appreciate & enjoy what I have more now. I realise that I may still ultimately lose my W, but if I do I won't have feelings of resentment, I'll have happy memories of the past and of how we've been getting on lately.
The time for talking R will come again sooner or later, but things sure are a lot easier when you don't talk about R stuff & you just do positive things. Right now, I just want things to take their course naturally without any pressure and just enjoy life.
Whatever happens I know it'll be OK, some of you guys are living proof & that's encouragement enough for me.
Bill
Me 34 W 32 D 9 S 6 M: 9 years T: 12 Bomb: 02/11/12 EA/PA: 12/17/11 - ongoing Moved out: Oct 2012 Joint Filed for D: 2/11/13
