As for the messiness, my H accused me of that, too. However, my house is now fairly peaceful and clean since he doesn't live here anymore.
And as I go through different areas of the house, for I fear I will have to move, I noticed that my H kept everything, even garbage (and I mean actual garbage). I am not saying that I'm not messy, but it just seems interesting that the house seems more in order since he's gone.
Me: 42 H: 44 M: 17 1/2 T: 19 1/2 S: 14 D: 10 D: 8 Dog: 16-17 (very old & H's responsibility, live w/ me) 1st Bomb (I need space): 2/3/12 2nd Bomb (ILYBNILWY): 2/11/12 Moved out: 2/12/12