WCW, Happy Spring to you too! Spring came early here too. Flowers, etc., are blooming a month ahead of time and it makes me wonder what the summer will hold for us, i.e., hot and dry.
Have you given any thought to what might be behind your feelings? Maybe what happened is that you worked so very hard to hold things together while your h was traveling the time zone and now that the dust has settled, you have finally gotten to a place where you no longer have to "push yourself" as hard to maintain a normal way of life. You climbed the mountain of hurt, pain and disappointment and now that you've claimed the mountain, you very well might be sitting there thinking "what's left".
Your h is waiting on you to give him some a sign that you are now ready to be more physical. He knows that he has hurt you, but is afraid to reach out for fear that you will turn him away. WCW, you may just have to reach out a bit further to see if it is his shyness or if he is scared that you will turn away from him. Think back to your "dating" days and go from there.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
