Welcome to the crazy train!! I've almost been promoted to conductor!
There is no easy fix... except to fix yourself. Take the focus off of H and the negativity and put the focus on the positives of you and the kids.
Easier said than done, I do know that.
Here are some ideas I found useful...
Parks are free. Get on the swings with the kids. Bring a ball and play soccer with them (Plus the exercise and laughter does wonders for your soul)
Do you have concerts in the park in your area? We do and they are free, check out your county or cities website and see. We pack blankets, fruit and drinks and went and danced to the music and had a great time.
Pop popcorn, make a tent and watch movies from RedBox for a dollar!! (we have a projector so we project them onto the side of the house at night)
Go to the mall, and people watch as you window shop. Make up stories about the people you see and what they are buying! It's great fun and it builds your children's creativity in the process (the teacher in me comes out every now and again.)
Have pancakes and bacon for dinner
uh.... have a ton more, but i'm in the midst of a job application for a new position so my brain is a bit fried.
