Yes I will owe this year.

We aren't legally married in Cali so I still file single for federal and can do the same for state.

I understand what you are saying Rick but the thing is that I'm not sure I can be myself around her.. not yet.

Actions are the same but the motives are different.

I'm sure one day I will be able to be myself and trust my actions around my wife.. someday

I do want to be true to myself... but I also really want to keep the changes going.

I really want to keep healing.

I don't know what the future holds.. but right now it's being dark.

So if I can't get in trouble legally... why tell her? She's a grown up. This would just be another instance of her not looking into things.

It would be another instance of me bailing her out....

... at least in my mind.

and I'm over that.

M(f): 40
D'ed: 8/12

Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.

Love at all costs because you are loved well.