Spring has sprung early this year and it's been busy - at home, at work, in life. I guess that's good but but but....oh well, complaining doesn't get it done!
Life has been good, although I think what I've finally hit on is that I don't feel passionate about anything anymore. I have fun, I am busy, I love so much of my life, but I have not had the burst of passion that I used to have. So often I still feel like a cloud is hovering and I am waiting for the other shoe to drop, that I am still waiting for H to say he will be gone.
He gives no hint of that, in fact he's more involved than he has been in years and I have to adjust that too. It's balancing when he wants to take the lead and yet when I am supposed to do what I did while H was fogged up.
Idunno, at times I wonder if H is waitig for me to step up and be more physical like we once were. Those gentle brushes of fingers as we pass each other, a simple hug hello and goodbye, reaching for his hand as we walk in from an evening of activity. He always said he was shy, yet if he is giving any clues of wanting that again I am really missing it!
Embrace and Enjoy!
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
