Again, there's nothing wrong with you and you're not a fool. He did a good job fooling you. It doesn't mean that you're a fool. You can analyze it to death, but the bottomline is that he is the only one who knows why he's doing what he's doing. He might not even know why he's doing things himself.
As hard as things are right now, you have to 'let go'.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.