Nah, it's okay. I'm just not the old LG. I've changed so much and have read a lot about ACT - the coaching program has changed my life for the better, as has byron katie - and even the law of attraction (in understanding resistance). I'm in a deep process right now, and it's exhausting, challenging, but wonderful. My destroyed relationship has been an utter gift in the end. And I'm in an ongoing process of understanding my ex (still) so that we can be good coparents to our daughter - it helps when he's not in my face all the time, and I'm not having triggers, trauma, reactions, etc.