So this weekend I am leaving to see my family. I cannot wait to escape the prison which I feel like I live in on a daily basis. I am leaving tomorrow after work. Normally I leave on Saturday AM, but since one of my 180s is to be a more fun, spontaneous mom I reserved a hotel in Chicago and we will stay the night there, swim in the pool, enjoy the continental breakfast and leave for my mother's that morning.
The other day I saw a strange woman's business card on my husband's nightstand. She happens to work in the same area of the state where I have been seeing unusual charges pop up on our credit card statement. I am finding it difficult to even look at him, let alone be civil to him. He has just turned into such a completely different person that I am just spinning. I think I need to go dark on him although it is hard when we are still living together and co-parenting together. He will smile, flirt and joke around with me and it hurts. I need to detach, but I am finding it hard to "lovingly" detach. My acting skills are really being put to the test. I am constantly fighting the urge to confront him. I have an appointment with a DB coach tomorrow night. I hope they can help because I feel like I am drowning.
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 J marries OW 1/24/15 "No matter where you go, there you are"
