Thank you Kaffe Diem, I agree with you on everything. I know all about the alcohol thing.I spent too much time driving around looking at the crops with my partners and a cooler. Too many times ending up in the bar. Too many times coming home drunk. I am very ashamed of my behavior. I could have been home with W. I quit drinking after I left the hospital. Dont miss it. Never ever knowing what went on with W and my best friend, that will be a different story. That will require alot of work. I have many people supporting me and my decision to stand for my M. But do have detracters too. My parents and my brother to name a few. The shoulder thing hit home too. I have a friend of the opposite sex who has been a positive through my mental illiness and marriage problems. I am very careful. I have told her if i ever say or do anything inapropiate to say so. We are good enough friends that i know she would. Well Id better get to work. Thanks so much for the thoughts K. Keep them coming as it really helps and makes me think.
