Let me frame this a different way... because I figure since you are still posting here, you are still hopeful that at the very least, you can stay M in some form or way...
What do you feel is missing from your life? If you are aware of one famous self improvement guru's six basic, human needs... what needs do you feel are missing in your life, that you would like to fill?
Also, have you been through the 5LL book?
What is your LL and what do you think your H's LL is?
