What's happens when u lose interest in WAS??

[2chiquitos]

Today was a good day. I felt really upbeat. I should be thankful for many things in my life. Most importantly my kids. They are strong and healthy and have so much to learn.

I am feeling more serenity as time goes on. I target my stress and try to disseminate it as best I can.

I have a better relationship with my higher power and it shows because my relationship with others has improved, most importantly with myself!

I have learned so much about myself from this experience. I have a feeling this was going to happen to me at some point in my life for many reasons.
1- my father was an alcoholic so I was either going to continue being with a child of an alcoholic (as H was) or with an addict of some sort
2- my father betrayed my mom numerous times. I was going to look for someone as insecure as my father without knowing it.
3- It wasn't until now that I knew I never knew how to show love. I followed my parents destructive pattern and I was headed in the same direction.

I thank God everyday that I have my children, that H is involved in their lives everyday, that I own a home and completed my master's degree before having children.

I would like for H to try to work on our R however I have done everything I can do. I did a 180 and he knows that my changes are permanent.
-a lot less controlling when it comes to parenting
-I tell him how much I appreciate him
-I have a better relationship with his parents
-I listen to him
-I make my home welcoming
-I look presentable everyday!
-I act as if I'm having a great day, because I am!

These changes are ultimately for me. I know now, that I AM CAPABLE of having a healthy loving relationship, with H or anyone else.

Whatever happens, happens. Live and let live, Let go and let God.
Take care everyone, DBing online has its benefits, but for some reason gives me a lot of anxiety so I need to go on hiatus for a bit!